Kalliel (kalliel) wrote,
Kalliel
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5x22

"Swan Song" is still the most traumatizing thing I have ever watched. OH MY GOD.

edit: Okay yeah, that needs more context. I don't really miss people in the long-term; I'm about the worst person you could expect a call from, or a letter, or anything like that. My family's lucky if they hear from me once every three months (though in my defense, it's partly because I only ever get voice mail anyway).

But goodbyes? That actual moment of severance (which is definitely much too strong a word here)? Those hurt. When my father and siblings drove home I missed them so much it actually physically hurt; I don't think I've ever missed anyone that much in my life, ever. Four months--four months and I will see them again! But it won't ever be that trip, that moment again.

One of my housemates came to visit for a day, before she flies to Scotland; we finished up our Supernatural-watching during her visit, because we had this SPN/Doctor Who pact going, which is where the aforementioned random rewatch came from. And now, four months! Is that the magic number?

It's a short time; I know it's a short time. And I know that well before then I'll be back to not calling and forgetting to send letters. But right now it just feels impossibly, impossibly long. Okay. Okay. I just had to write that out.

tl;dr I'd stop missing people if they'd just stop leaving.
Tags: daddy loves us, don't you cry no more, i can't watch tv like a normal person, i use lj the way other people use tumblr, siblingship, timetimetime, trufax, unapologetic hit-and-run
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