Fandom: Did gishwheS. Very proud of all my teammates. <3
Writing-wise, am working on the same things I have been--the fandomaid fic (which one day I will actually finish; it's apparently interested in taking the long way around) and the Book of the Damned longfic I keep fretting about.
I actually finished all of Dean's chapters a few weeks ago; we were braintwinning an emotional wavelength so the writing actually went pretty easy, haha. XDD I was having one of those weeks where I was like, if you take a step back and look at yourself you can tell you're being completely insufferable. And then you're like, man, I GUESS I SHOULD KEEP DOING THIS because maybe if I'm insufferable enough then everyone will leave me and I won't have to worry about them leaving anymore, or me hurting them. Because that makes sense... Anyway! I personally find Dean very sufferable, so writing to that zone was cathartic, because I love Dean and self-love is an easier stepping stone to reach from via that pathway.
I don't know if anyone else will be able to stand the fic, though, because I have a very high tolerance for terrible and insufferable. Whoops.
Sam's chapters are posing more of a challenge, which is a critical thing because he's been tasked with all the prime real estate--first chapter, climax chapter, etc. I'm still not sure what he's there for, personally. Like, plot-wise, I know what he's going to be doing, and vis a vis Dean and Charlie, I know where he's at, but I haven't quite found what this fic is going to be doing for Sam re: Sam; I just know that I don't want to go forward with the story if there isn't something valuable here for Sam re: Sam.
So I opened up a new doc for a completely different story to try and suss that out--this being the story I mentioned yesterday that I'd mentioned as "cute and funny"--and lol, well, on the upside Sam made it abundantly clear what the fic was meant for, as far as Sam re: Sam went. It just didn't jibe well with this plan I had for something cute and funny. And when I tried to force it in that direction, it just turned into troll!fic and I think I need to excise because it's just... not. Tonally appropriate. XP
Come Thursday, I'll be traveling for a while, so I won't be writing, but I think what I need to do when I get back is just bang out some low-stakes flash fiction--stuff with an upper word limit, a time limit, and none of this overbearing and overcomplicated ridiculousness backstage.
No waffling, no overanalyzing, no forcing. Just going hard and owning whatever happens.