BY RIGHTS I should be able to watch SPN while doing all those fucking things, because I'm...not certain there's a SPN ep I haven't seen at least three times, outside of the eps that aired in early 2020??? I've only watched 9x20 once... And I still haven't seen 15x12 or 15x13. But anyway, the point is, it's not lack of familiarity or comfortability with these episodes. But if I'm going to watch SPN, I'm going to watch the fuck out of SPN, and I'm going to be right there, total immersion, total buy-in, presence in full.
Which definitely isn't an experience I'm knocking! That's probably how we should all be doing everything, all the time, instead of buying into the myth of multi-tasking. It'd be a richer life.
But... late capitalism. So what I really wish I could find it in me to do is protect that viewing relationship while also simultaneously being able to put SPN on as my chore companion and have that feel right, too. Because I started a rewatch between seasons 9 and 10 and I AM STILL IN SEASON 10. IT'S BEEN OVER HALF A DECADE AND I'M STILL IN SEASON 10. I gotta finish this rewatch so I can, uhhhhhh... REWATCH SPN AGAIN.