And like, I wanted to write a CYOA but without the adventure part--where the choices had more to do with separating out the phyllo dough sheathes of a conversation than they did with trying to solve a mystery or advance the plot. The MotW was there, obviously, but most of the choices were not about how best to kill a scarecrow, lol. And I chose to set it in Scarecrow because it was the most straightforward episode I could think of where Sam and Dean had had an argument that took place in the car. XD I was like, man, the bones of this gotta be REAL straightforward or I'm going to confuse myself.
S1 ended up being a really fun place to explore, though, because it was so early on, and Sam and Dean's reads of each other were so unfinished and open-ended, and Sam's assessment of himself was so open-ended, holding so little of our fannish darlings darling and still with one foot very much in a life that involved Jess and avenging her and going back to the "normal" life he'd left. Working with him in his was fun, too, because I'll be honest, I was expecting to write something a little squishier, and kind of wanted to write something squishier, but at no point was Sam ever on board with that. XP I did like the hodgepodge of over/underreaction he gave, though, which felt appropriate to the situation of an inconveniently-timed slightly-major-but-mostly-mild car wreck in bumfuck Indiana with some kind of monster business afoot, getting in the way of being simply angry and simply vengeful.
And I liked that--at least to my mind--there wasn't a strong line between an ostensibly "correct" or "incorrect" ending. Except for the Meg/Megabus one, which I guess would be "incorrect" because it's very short relative to the others, but I don't think it just leads to Sam dying, end of story. In my mind it leads to a version of 2x14 except in mid-S1--which, hey, at least means Jo gets spared? I feel like there's something worth living through in every branch of the story, even if some might do more for Sam and Dean's relationship and others might break it. And there's always something they probably would have preferred to avoid--generally the death of one of their interchangeable sets of civilians (the cops, the Red Van couple, the kids from the beginning of 1x12). I didn't want to write a CYOA where there's one ending where you successfully kill the monster and "win" and in all the other ones you die. Which, granted, most of the endings are pretty open-ended, but I personally find ending on multiple potentials (most of which are just S2 scenarios happening in S1 instead, lol) more fun reading than having to read multiple strictly-defined endings. That's TOO much closure!
Outside of my writing/reading pleasure and that of a few others, though, I don't think literally any of this experiment was outwardly successful. XD I hoped it would be received as a story that was very much invested in Sam!!!! and Dean!!!!!, and not just as a curious gimmick. But given that of the three people who commented on AO3, two of them are not even in SPN fandom (one was many years ago--and the other literally has never even seen the show), I think it came across more as curious gimmick than love song. /O\
BUT NOT IN MY HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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